So the short version of my sop story,
I liked this guy lets name him S, So S and i had a thing going on and then school band trip came and we spent a lot of time together.
We held hands, cuddled, etc. and we both knew full well that we liked each other and then all of a sudden i was told by someone that there was no chance of us going out. So i confronted S and he said he was going to be really busy this summer and didn't want to blow me off all the time. So this was all kinda like a slap in the face for me.

So back at school things were kinda akward between us and then it got better i showed up to his rugby games. and we chatted and then things got a little flirty between us again. my hopes got up again. and then ..... summer vacation...haven't seen nor spoken to him since school ended.

So to the point of the subject of this entry.
I feel completely lost without seeing him everyday. he's on my mind..a lot more than i think he should be right now. and i have no way of communicating with him...no phone # , email, facebook, NOTHING. (he has dial-up.)

So i've tried the whole get over him and move on. Attempted that...the guy i was flirty with...he's gone for the summer...7 weeks. And then i meet up with one of his friends at a bonfire...and she said that all S ever did was talk about me and that he really liked me.

And now i'm just fed up with my feelings....normal?